"Who was this gorgeous guy in front of me? His eyes were staring deep into mine. I could feel my cheeks getting flushed. I hope he didn't notice. What was that contraption? He was introducing me to a whole new world. And I was ready. He was still such a mystery to me. Why was he putting sheets on the floor? Why did he give me this gift of paint He was so complicated. I can't believe he was showing me the inside of his van. How many women had he opened up to like this? I was nervous and excited all at once. He was so dominating. I had no choice but to obey. He wanted me to document our growing relationship. It was our first photo. I didn't want him to go. I felt a pain in my stomach. I'd never felt like this about a man before. The thought of never seeing him again was agonizing. The last remnants of Carl Blue were still fresh in my mind. He had changed me. I'll never be the same."